. . .since that day. It wasn’t easy to find courage again to at least talk/blog about it. The process took a while and it had been heart-breaking and depressing. Even now, everything hurts and anger fills as if we’ve lost him yesterday and I tell you, nothing hurts more than the day we gave him back to our Creator. Everything went too painful that there came a point I’ve questioned Him so many things.

But then things like those pass, not the hurt, but the anger (rage) does. Each time I go to church, I ask Him to lift the anger inside me and replace it with understanding, peace, and forgiveness. The family is again finding ways to move on while getting strength from one another. Waiting each day that things will go our way and hoping that God will give the justice my cousin needs. The justice we needed to at least put our minds at peace, to start emotional healing, and to make our family bond stronger with God at its center.

October will be the start of the endless Hearings for my cousin’s case and I’m hopeful that we’ll win it.

This post was a draft (30^th September 2009) and it took me some time to click that publish button. Back reading unhappy posts in a happy place is too ironic.

I'm off for Granny and cousins' birthday bash. Will catch up on posts (Patch's despedida, Starbucks Experience, Ondoy's Aftermath, and just about anything) leyttuhhrr. Hehe. And oh, tomorrow I'd be starting my coffee classes in Starbucks. Yipee!(: