Decisions. I hate them.

This morning I needed to decide whether to continue a scholarship for a Java Programming course or just make myself busy as a bum. If you look at it, it's easy to decide and you'll say just go for the scholarship. But I tell you, it's sooo hard for me. You see, I have my reasons. One of which is, I'm a BS Nursing graduate AND I don't have any idea (literally) about programming, coding, and what not. Next, I needed to attend trainings if ever I passed an exam this September at National Children's Hospital (which makes the schedule a problem), and lastly, I so want that Barista position in Starbucks (I'm currently waiting for the store location and date to be assigned by the District Manager).

Well, I am not supposed to take a Java Programming class, it should've been Graphic/Web Designing. The TESDA officer sent me to a school that doesn't offer such course and I don't effin' know why. Another things is, the school did not inform me that I made it on the entrance exam which I took a month ago, so I thought I failed. I was so shocked when I received a phone call from KorPhil yesterday that the classes will start this morning. That Java Programming course costs Php 30,000+ if I was enrolled as a regular student, but I got it FREE because I'm under TESDA. I needed to attend an 8-hour class during Sundays to complete its 96-240 hour requirement, plus I'd be having an allowance of Php 60/day which will be given at the end of the course. Apparently, the NCH-schedule and Starbucks so-called-reasons are cancelled. What's left is about me having no idea about programming, coding, etc. I almost cried this morning because I didn't know what am I doing there or if I belong there, even. There were I.T. faculties and I.T graduates, some were high school graduates, and others, like me, who's course is f- a- r from one's field of study. Would you even believe that there's a priest, a policeman, and a private detective?

But of course, after the first half of the class, I've decided that I shall pursue 'coz it's an opportunity (even if I'm not convinced that it is). We'll see if this decision will have a good result. *crosses fingers* Can you give me a good luck hug?


I know this post is lame. But, please, I just needed to rant about this. Blech.

And oh, I think I'mma cry leytuhrrr. One More Chance at Cinema One, 11:00PM :p