Yes. It made me cry, too.
Going back few days ago, when things were a little psyche and all I can do is to suck it all up. Thinking I'm that strong to face it and to overcome such situation in matter of days. . . but guess what? I was wrong. . and everything now is starting to sink in. Blame it on that effin' song and blame it on me. I know, I was the one who gave up. But what else can I do? I feel like I'm holding on to something that's not even there. It'll be easy for me to leave if you're just mad, but you're not. Instead, you always reminded me of how you miss and love me. For some time, I loved the attention I got from you. But, not anymore. While everything's insane, I realized that I'm just digging myself a deeper hell-hole to a point where I can't resist to just gravitate towards you until I can't escape anymore. I'm afraid to fall again. Wanna know
why?
I'm giving myself time now before I leave. Taking things slow 'til the time I can go on without you. Call me proud. Call me selfish. I just need to do this for myself. 'Coz for over 2 and a half-year it was all about you. Only you. Now, it's my turn.
What hurts now is, I still love you and I need to stop showing it just because you gave me reasons. Enough reasons to tell me to stop.
Edit:How ironic it is that I called this place as "
happyness". Blechhh.
lurinaaa, you're right. it's easy to leave kapag may galit ka. pero sa akin, ayos na kahit ala akong galit hehe... sa totoo lang medyo nakaka-recover na ako. rebound na agad noh? hehehe... two months pa lang naman na wala na kami ng ex ko. ang lagi ko na lang iniisip, kung gagamitin ko wisely ang time ko sa ibang bagay, a month from now, ano na kayang meron at mararamdaman ko sa dati kong mahal? nde naman ironic ang iyong site title. happyness is always a matter of choice as what they've been saying. just hang on there girl! you have a lot of things to discover! ^_^
Thanks Mish (: Actually, hindi ko alam kung pano ba mag-cope with this insane thing I am in. I texted friends, parang how-to-cope-with-breakup-101 yun dating. Hehe. Anyhoo, I'm just thinking that after all these sh*ts, I'd be stronger and hotter. Choss!:p I can do thissss!!
"happyness is always a matter of choice as what they've been saying." -- I'll always remember, Mish.=) Good luck to life and sa pag-recover. Heehee